I just wanted to write for 15 minutes about what is on my mind.
Just 15 minutes....
Birthdays - this was the last time I ever wanted a birthday gift. Here on, every birthday gift will just be taken without any expectation.
I turned 25.
There is something I wanted for this birthday. A job as a UX/UI developer, I wanted to get it, because its really what I wanted to start working on. And I wanted to go home with some good news this birthday. I wanted to be among people who loved me. I thought I should enter 25 in a happy way.
But that didnt happen- clearly.
I was still stuck in a place , in a situation where I couldn't be elsewhere. Its really not nice to be in the company of people who just co-operate with your existence. Atleast not on your birthday. I mean, who wants to feel like that on their birthday.
No card,no decorations,no calls from friends, just to top everything an act of obligation.
Please, for hearts sake, I dont want to do that to myself again - ever.
Since I felt so this birthday, I decided to not look forward to anything from anyone.I'll be off to some place and do something that I like, avoiding unnecessary hard feelings due to greed.
People change with time and whatever new comes into their life. I don't find it wise to question that. I can just give my opinion which would say - 'So much self-occupancy is not good for life, because everyone gets those days when they wish they still had that best friend.' And I mean EVERYONE.
Even if my birthday didn't go great, I'm sure I'll work up my way before the next one comes . I'm intending to be in Hollywood/ Disney studios with some great people for my next birthday.
If you're thinking about my mood - it is sane enough to not be wrong.
Just 15 minutes....
Birthdays - this was the last time I ever wanted a birthday gift. Here on, every birthday gift will just be taken without any expectation.
I turned 25.
There is something I wanted for this birthday. A job as a UX/UI developer, I wanted to get it, because its really what I wanted to start working on. And I wanted to go home with some good news this birthday. I wanted to be among people who loved me. I thought I should enter 25 in a happy way.
But that didnt happen- clearly.
I was still stuck in a place , in a situation where I couldn't be elsewhere. Its really not nice to be in the company of people who just co-operate with your existence. Atleast not on your birthday. I mean, who wants to feel like that on their birthday.
No card,no decorations,no calls from friends, just to top everything an act of obligation.
Please, for hearts sake, I dont want to do that to myself again - ever.
Since I felt so this birthday, I decided to not look forward to anything from anyone.I'll be off to some place and do something that I like, avoiding unnecessary hard feelings due to greed.
People change with time and whatever new comes into their life. I don't find it wise to question that. I can just give my opinion which would say - 'So much self-occupancy is not good for life, because everyone gets those days when they wish they still had that best friend.' And I mean EVERYONE.
Even if my birthday didn't go great, I'm sure I'll work up my way before the next one comes . I'm intending to be in Hollywood/ Disney studios with some great people for my next birthday.
If you're thinking about my mood - it is sane enough to not be wrong.
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