Never Give Up

Hey All,

This is a personal experience, one that i can never forget.It taught me something which i'll carry for the rest of my life..So i thought i'll speak it out..

I had my University Exams 2 months back."Analog and Digital Communication " on May 6 th 09...

May 5 th: I spent the day learning 4 units the best i could ..As always i omitted one unit.I looked through important questions ..Yeah its one of the papers i studied for,because just then i derieved some inspiration from Prasanna's blog(ok he's my Superb Super Senior)

May 6 th:I Sat at my desk waited for the question paper...and when i finally got it,turned to page 2 with just one thought in my mind "I should know atleast 3x16 mark questions"...Read through and then finally smiled..."Ah i know 4 of them "...

(Don't mind my switching between Tenses,Rite now my focus is on conveying the message in the most effective way i can...So put up with it)

I turn my answer booklet to Part B page and i start with Superheterodyne reciever..and then suddenly i feel a sharp pain in my head..my vision blurs down...I have this splitting headache(which i later knew was due to dehydration)..I feel my ears getting heated up and i finally drop my head on the table...The first thing that comes to my mind even before wondering what's happening to me iss "God why are you doing this to me" ...Weird thought right..i know but i felt very decieted at that moment....its one exam where i really tried some 8 hours of studying and i get an easy question paper and i still cant do it....Everything seemed to look black and white and a hammering feeling on my head...Bad state of mind(physically and mentally)..

I had this waveform on my paper... and i was staring at it,suddenly my mind went crazy..out of everything in the world i was thinking of wave propagation.and then swishhhh ,The lines of Prasanna's blog running in my head...the lines about propaGATE CS...the very lines which inspired me just the day before to study..At that moment i knew that passing that paper meant a lot to me....So i picked up my pen with just one thought on my mind "I Goto Do It"... And now i'm glad i did that,because if i had given up ,even luck wouldnt have helped me..And most important thanks to Prasanna and his Blog:-)

Now a special note on my External examiner..She took this immense effort of waking me up every five minutes (for 3 hours) after i put my head down on the table , and she asks me each of those times if "i wanted to write"... and i spoke out "Yes" and i wrote a few sentences...She 's a very important highlight of that day,if it wasnt for her help i would have dozed off throughout...God Bless her!!!

Other Highlights: My Crappy handwriting, diagrams drawn without a scale,submitting a university paper even without checking it,and at the end of it all not even knowing what i wrote .There begins my Zombie state......

After submitting my paper i just sat there staring at the green board..My friend Bubu,Daphne and swarna ,asked me what happened...And whether you believe it or not I CRIED...i think its the first time i cried this year 2009.....They were supportive and encouraging and Daphne even made me laugh with a timely joke . Yeah my parents came to pick me up Thank God!! At home my mom was very sure that it was because of stress due to last minute studies...So there again tough time convincing her, for a while...Then she consoled me and made me pick up my books ,drank horlicks and all energy boosters...lol...and Once again my seniors made me realise the importance of focusing on the one last paper...So then i finally broke out of my Zombie state and got back to studying...at 11 pm on 6 th night..Yeah i wrote the last exam fine...

Now here's the big part...Every day since then i've been worried if i'll clear that paper...27 pages no chance" was an open reply from my mind..But my concience prayed,Hoped...And then.......I DID CLEAR.....and By the way it wasnt even a just pass, i got 65...Prayers,Luck ,Miracle i dunno what to call it, but I learned something from that experience,To keep trying and if you're sincere you'll be given a chance

Now having read all this most of you must be thinking that 'I was lucky'..honestly i think So too....But still I learnt a lesson "NEVER GIVE UP"..................